Sunday, December 5, 2010

I am ME!

I am me!

If you ask me to describe myself, i guess the oddest of the adjectives would be applicable to me..

Eccentric, unconventional, wild, crazy, weird, non conforming, extreme, unpredictable..I could go on and on..

But i was still me..maybe i took an oath at birth..that i wouldnt change for anything or anyone..refused to change and even now im the same. I am ME with all my imperfections and truthfulness..yes thats another part of me..discretion has never been in my dictionary..if someone asks me..i will tell them the truth ( unless the person/s with me dont want me to say)

while growing kids..we are hardly judgemental..or i was just accepted..and the teachers at school..well..i guess they had no choice.,.,with my dad having built the school and mom the local power house..they had to turn a blind eye to my idiosyncracies.. college..i was still the same..i didnt have to act..never pretended..i was ME..many people came in contact with me and left as fast..but some have remained with part of me..the same continued as we were thrown out into the wild bad world..again.people trooped in and out of my life...and some stayed..and they became a part of me and vice versa..

what i want to tell the world today-- i marvel at the way how these friends have just accepted me for what i am.,,for who i am..non judgemental, ungrudgingly.unquestioningly..totally and what more..loved me as much.. questions explainations needed for any of my actions or reactions..i have lived my life the way i wanted to..( of course-- the cardinal rule is whatever i do..i ensure noone gets hurt) ..sometimes socially unacceptable...but nothing mattered to them..but me..they stood by solid rock through my thicks and thins/sins...these people must be superior beings.. dearest friends who are around the world..i bow to you..i salute you.. and i dedicate this blog to you.,.and from the bottom of my heart..thank you for accepting me, loving me and keeping me as I am..I am so proud and happy that you wonderful people are a such an essential part of my gloriuos world...and have given me so much to live for and live with..when you could have just walked stayed..

God bless you all...and peace be with you always..

To all my love and my gratitude.. I LOVE YOU ALL..

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


Guzarish isnt a movie! Its an experience! Exhilarating..enchanting  and exotice..

I havent been touched by any other movie more intensely than this one. Or moved so much.The way emotions have been depicted , handled and expressed is to be felt than seen or heard. Each one so different but finally so complete and total- Fear, frustration, love, forgiveness, pain, disappointments, passion. Every relationship- friendship, motherhood, lovers, professional has been  tried, tested ,pulled apart and put together in perfect symmetry ,with so much intensity and without the drama! You go through each one, savouring them, living them and at the same recalling similar moments and relationships in our own lives. So damn beautiful.

Whats most amazing was the depiction of love in its highest , purest and truest form! Such sublime love reserved for  the very privileged few. The rest of us can only go through this through Guzarish! There is no take.only give, there is no expressing only feeling, there is no speech, only touch, there are no promises, only honouring them, there is no wishing, only doing.And we go through each of this..and how!!!!! ..a roller coaster ride ..of confusion, passion, compassion..of wanting,seeking and longing ..and wanting more, seeking more and longing more ...and this feeling stays on with us...being a part of us..

That people can rise so high, that relationships can be so sacred and holy..questions do doubts..are these human beings for real? Sanjay Leela Bansali has done it again! He has risen above the ordinary, above the mundane, above the unreal and given us the gift of GUZARISH! Hats off to you, Sanjay! And thank you for this most AMAZING  180 minutes experience you gave us! Unforgettable!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

the road diggers!!

Have you ever noticed the state of our roads..well..the state its cannot miss.
We do spend a lot of time on the road- in cars, autos, buses and as pedestrians.Why not? The roads are meant for us and we are the taxpayers as we are all kind of owners of the roads.

But what do we get in return??

The following-\

Potholes ( to which if you fall into would double up as a grave), broken parts, uneven footpaths ( where there ARE footpaths), gravel and sometimes not even a road!!!!..thanks to the leaders we elect year after year ..thats another story by itself..

but what i wanted to share was something  else..yess..the road diggers!

In a radius of 3 kms, at any time of the year, you will find minimum 4 places where there is active digging going on..either in the middle , sides or on footpaths. If you ask them..they will be from water authority, electricity board or the telephone departments ( sometimes even private citizens digging for some connection or the other)

Errrr..but they are not 'exactly' from the departments..but contract workers whose only job is to DIG!

At times you find the 'supervisor' ( some of them have aides who hold umbrellas over their heads for sun and rain )  with an air of importance and supremacy ,for about 30 minutes or so to ensure that the digging starts on time. Thats the last you see of them

Some places we find a board saying "men at work', other places a stick dug into the ground..if we are lucky the stick will have a red cloth hanging on it ( in Kerala there is no dearth for red cloth of course) But most of the time, you will find mud slung carelessly on both sides that indicates some serious digging is happening

And then the diggers are it..digging deep and wide in desperate vigour and enthusiasm! It may last 2 hours, half a day, one day, several days. Sometimes we find them coming back in regular intervals as well to continue where they left off..more diggging of course!

Whatever the time duration what we are left with is this-

- trenches that are dug and left open. With no warning signs or boards. Just like that! Maybe the contract workers are hired just to dig it open and not close them.

- hurriedly closed holes that look like  heavily  pregnant boas.

- closed holes with huge pipes thrown on them ( which luckily are gaily colourful!)

- and not a single person ACCOUNTABLE or  ANSWERABLE to such irresponsibilities!

So we what we have learnt

- take all this in our stride..even accept it
- master the art of walking or steering expertly around and through these trenches- closed or opened.
- and still continue to pay road taxes!

Jai Hind!

Friday, November 19, 2010

horns and honks

Typical day...on the road..

traffic jams, people crossing the road at their will and wish, bicycles trying to overtake you, cops flagging down suspected offenders, dead animals, threatening bus drivers..scenes after scenes of a drama unfolds..

but the Oscar goes to...The HONKERS!!! are in a block that is a mile long...all stuck like sardines in a can.and this smart alec ( always a male..) starts honking!!! what the hell does he want ME to do??? fly 6 feet above so he can drive past???

Again you are in a traffic light..behind 20 cars..the light turns green..and guess what?? even when the light is orange our hero starts what? does he think im settling down in that space?

Other day I was in a highway..very light traffic..a car about 10 metres behind me and nothing between us.. honking non stop...for what????

Once in Nadakkav junction, I actually got out of the car and went and yelled at this retard who was leaning on his horn despite a dozen vehicles AND a cop in  front of my car.. and he is looking at me bewildered with a look that said..'now what did I do'?...sigh

In a nutshell..people honk and honk..why?

Coz they have a horn and they SHOULD use it??
Is it a syndrome?
Is it a manifestation of some unresolved experence?
Is it a superiority complex? listen..i have a horn and its my birthright ????
Coz its freeeeeee????? Not taxable?????

Whatever..they are enough to give anyone a severe, untreatable case of road rage..and not to mention..Noise pollution!

But we can do something..charge people for every time they use the horn for NO reason ..which is like almost every time!! Calicut will be RICH! :)

anyways guys..One for the road! Cheers!!:)

have you wondered....

Have you ever wondered..

In an ATM, the reciepts are thrown all over ..some crumpled..some torn..

and all this  inspite of a waste paper basket kept there for the very purpose?

Its crazy..

Is it that people

* dont care
* dont know
* dont bother
* too lazy to bend
* bad aim

Whatever it is not good at all..a decent level of responsibilty,cleanliness and concern should be in all ATM users.

I have seen baskets mounted at waist level in some atms..but even then!!!! Papers scattered all over!!!

Why ask for receipts in the first place if you dont want to keep them?

Maybe the ATM machine should have facility to check your balance too?

At least then we will have clean ATM's..One day hopefully. Will we???